Daily Dabbles

[ashley]

Ive been keeping journals for a while now writing down short stories, poems and just thoughts and ideas about whatever pops into my head.Now I know that to anyone else these may seem like random ranting but its sometimes frustrating to think about all these people who records Journals like me and what they have to say never gets said or seen.Writing has never been my strongest way to communicate but to think of it for me what is my way .How do I get heard I sing someone else songs. it helps some like a therapy. some people take a shower and sing or draw.I started thinking how having a new idea something fresh and undone its like original dosent exist anymore just things that claim to be first and new. Everything seems to be influenced my something else. our environment rubs off on us pushed us all our ideas everything we say it all just seems to depend on everything else. Gods the only true Original anymore.

Stuff has happened recently some ill talk about and other things im just not ready to. people may keep saying not to bottle feelings up inside but its not like we can just wear our feeling on our selves. thats like wearing underpants atop our blue jeans. We cant just express our innermost private things to people. People dont do that no one does. We crack behind closed doors its a survival mechanism. We just suck it u,put on a face and just keep trucking. Everyone has problems worries fears and we deal with them when we can till then we just shove it. Turn our eyelashes into tear cages fester at night and we just keep living.

[ashley]

So yesterday I finally got outta the house.it was nice I thought I was going to spent the evening watching football with dad. It probably wouldn't have sucked so bad but im a Baseball girl I dont really get football. a sport where men wear spandex and ram one another as hard as they can and you have four tries to get a ball as close as you can to a end zone. and its not really a ball i meen its not really round its like two ellipses put together but its not really an ellipse because its to pointy on the ends so is it a ellipsoid. sometimes when ill watch spots ill notice people in the stands like a guy wearing yello who really stand out. Football ok i guess I just dont follow it the way I do my New york Yankees.

last night I went with my mom to cheak out this open mic night thing the band was great and all I just dont know if id suit anything they play. I ment a few of them they kept trying to drag my up with them. I just wanted to feel tem out I meen I sing in my room and shower now I haven't done anything public since like 2009. also singing in a smoke filled bar with a couple of 50 and 60 year old band people well it wasent really what i had in mind. But im just getting my feet wet agein and its just a start so i guess its time to brush up on some oldies.

[ashley]

im neer dc now so its a way diffrent group of people. origanly im from West Virginia so its kinda thatroadhouse severly layed back small town metality

[ashley]

I said these would be random so i had some ideas for Supernatural the second sounds to much like a episode they already did

case one: the brothers Travel to wash woods virginia to look into drownings the east coast is riddled with ships and planes that crashed into the water k. survivors of a ship wreck were said to found and build a town out of the lumber of the ships. the town is called Wash woods and its pleagued by occasional poor weather. the small town is mostly clubs now but part of it are haunted

case two: theres a bridge in Maryland called the Governers bridge road people have been seen hanging off the bridge and cars seem to drive themselves off of it theres reports of a big old pickup that chases people with no driver

[Kimba116]

Feb 4, 2012 18:40:19 GMT -5 ashley said:

Stuff has happened recently some ill talk about and other things im just not ready to. people may keep saying not to bottle feelings up inside but its not like we can just wear our feeling on our selves. thats like wearing underpants atop our blue jeans. We cant just express our innermost private things to people. People dont do that no one does. We crack behind closed doors its a survival mechanism. We just suck it u,put on a face and just keep trucking. Everyone has problems worries fears and we deal with them when we can till then we just shove it. Turn our eyelashes into tear cages fester at night and we just keep living.

I can def tell what you mean here as i am the same way. I've always been quiet (some say that i'm too quiet) but i speak up when i want to.
I moved around a lot as a kid. No. I was not a military kid but my parents were a low income household. There were many years in which my mom was the breadwinner and my dad either didn't work or did numerous electricity, painting, or labor type jobs. When he wasn't in jail or in one of his patterns he was a good dad. But b/c he has many personalities which vary and he never fully developed an identity i try and avoid him. The last time i saw him was at my sister's wedding. Meanwhile, my sis is the only one of us that stays in regular contact w/him. Myself and my other older sis live and continue to support my mom.

[Kimba116]

Feb 9, 2012 1:31:05 GMT -5 ashley said:

I said these would be random so i had some ideas for Supernatural the second sounds to much like a episode they already did

case one: the brothers Travel to wash woods virginia to look into drownings the east coast is riddled with ships and planes that crashed into the water k. survivors of a ship wreck were said to found and build a town out of the lumber of the ships. the town is called Wash woods and its pleagued by occasional poor weather. the small town is mostly clubs now but part of it are haunted

Yep. The 2nd sounds too close to "Route 666".

I'd be willing to read this one. Anything w/hauntings you can count me in.